School. is. hard. period. I am so over it. I want to be done, or just drop out. I am so overwhelmed I feel like I am going to explode. I have come to the point where I need to vent, after all that is why I made a blog! :)
So I will give you a little background on my life. When I started college I wanted to go to dental school. Around the end of my junior year I decided I did not want to go to dental school. My major is biomedical sciences that is the typical major for pre-med, pharm, and dental. Well if you don't go to one of those schools then you don't really have other options on what you can do with your bachelors degree. So I figured I would just go ahead and finish my degree and figure out the whole job situation later since I was so far along. Now I am a senior but I have known for a while that I would not graduate in four years (ie this May). Now I have to stay a whole extra year, but now I really just cannot go on with biomedical sciences. I am miserable, it is so hard and I put so much effort into it for it not to show. I have worked my butt off and I am just so tired and I have just run out of motivation. I have been in school nonstop since fall of 07, summers and all. I want to switch majors to something a little less demanding. I am now thinking about exercise science, health promotion, or rehabilitation. The problem: in exercise science you have to apply for it and you can only apply for the fall and spring, I have missed it for fall and in order for me to graduate in May of 2012 I need to be in there for the fall. In health promotion and rehabilitation you have to have an internship; I still have to do all of the course work in order for me to be able to do an internship in the spring. AHHHH WHAT DO I DO!!! I am so stressed and so worried. I have had 8480201973987 mental/emotional breakdowns the past couple of weeks. :( College is so hard. Like my mom says, "If it was easy everyone would do it". Well here's the catch I don't real plan on using my degree because I was thinking about going to a local community college and go to their radiology program. So pretty much I am wasting my time with this four year degree business. I would just quit now but I would feel HORRIBLE wasting my parents money like this. I also feel kind of dumb for wanting to just go to community college. Does that look bad on me? I will have a degree from Auburn but not using it. I mean how do you KNOW what you want to do for the rest of your life? I'm only 21 I don't think that I am capable of making these kinds of life altering decisions.
I am jealous of people who are really passionate about what they are going to school for. I mean how do they know that's what they want to do. I know God does everything for a reason in time, but I have no idea where he is trying to lead me. I know worrying get's you no where, but what else am I supposed to do, it's my future.
This Monday I will be meeting with career development services to help me figure all this out. Soooo I will let you know how it all goes, and maybe I will have a life plan! Sorry this was sooo long, but I need to get this out because bGe is getting tired of hearing my breakdowns.
Oh yea, and get excited! This weekend is parents weekend!! :)
I hope everyone's week is going better than mine. Remember what doesn't kill us makes us stronger!